At my dad’s apartment in New York, we agreed that the best course of action was to go back to Jersey to spend some time with my mom and grandma. I stayed at my grandma’s place for a few days, having deep discussions with her about what was going on. She didn’t look at me as a freak, just as her grandson who needed extra love and attention at the moment.
When discussing my future, I planned to join Rutgers University for the spring semester and take classes as a regular student. I was still sick of basketball so that wasn’t even in the cards. Craig was attending school at Rutgers, so I thought it’d be a perfect place to get back on my feet. The following weekend I went to the new student orientation to check out the campus.
At the orientation, it was extremely confusing trying to figure out which classes to take. When I was on the basketball team at Maine, the advisor made sure we took all the right courses.
Our only job was to pass them. Here, there was a long line just to see if our calculus course from high school transferred over. It felt weird, plus the fact that everything was so spaced out made it even more confusing. I thought about how much easier this would be if I just played basketball.
On a Friday night, I tried to apply for Rutgers online. I filled out all the required fields on their website but when I put in the credit card, it said the payment didn’t go through. The system was offline for maintenance from 10:50 PM to 11:00 PM every Friday night. I looked at the clock and it was 10:53 PM.
I just laughed at the chances of this. Considering how I wasn’t too excited about going to Rutgers as only a student anyway, I logged out of the browser and shut the computer down. I wasn’t going to pay the fee and I wasn’t going to attend Rutgers. I didn’t know what was next, but I’d figure it out.
This was when I was Feeling Lost in Between Basketball Seasons.